Tears very heavy with this one

I have no reproductive issues and nor does my partner. I thought it was because I wasn’t tracking my ovulation right. Did ovulation tests… got my peak (very much later than I thought). Cycle day nine. AF due on the 27th. Every cycle ends in pure heartbreak and I didn’t know I’d ever even cry over a negative test. I know this I’m only going into ttc #7 but the pain is absolutely mind numbing every time you fail. I think I wasn’t prepared for how much it would hurt the longer it went on